Friday, April 30, 2004

i've been so bad about updating. not that i've been so busy with my life, but just lazy. lazy lazy lazy. ever since i went on vacation it seems i haven't come back from it. ah well. so right now the city is going insane. totally nuts. we just made it into the euroleague basketball finals about 10 minutes ago, and everyone and their grandmother has been zooming down the street honking their horns, chanting, and waving maccabi tel aviv flags. totally crazy. and the game was here in tel aviv. and independence day was less than a week ago. if we beat the italians on saturday (i'm not sure if that will bring us good luck or bad luck for playing on saturday...than again, i'm wondering if they'll have to change the date cos it's on saturday...we'll see). anyway, if we beat the italians on whatever day, the whole country is gonna be going crazy. i can only imagine what it would be like if we were to do something ridiculous like win the world cup. chances of that are virtually nil, but still, that would be obsurd. *sigh* one can dream.

i hope i can catch the game on whatever day it'll be, cos i'm going up north for the weekend. same kind of trip as the one i took down south. it should be interesting. more people from my program are going this time. i just plan on enjoying myself and abusing my air intake system with some rolled goodness. i should probably be doing a lot more work than i have been recently. i was so good back in march. but i can't seem to get back into school mode.

i was asked today if i miss new york. i do, i really do. and of course everyone there. but at the same time, it's good to be here. you know, when it's "quiet" like it's been for the last few weeks, you realize that this country could easily be an eden. without a doubt. it's a hell of a give and take though. it also has some weird way of pulling people in and not letting them out. i dont know why that is. maybe it's the weather. but probably the people. the atmosphere. you can't be bored here, that's for sure. i cant seem to recall too many stories of people coming here and leaving. a lot of anglos end up living in ranana, where they've apparently made their own state within a state. silly anglos. drives me crazy that there are people that live here for 20 years and still dont know the language. it's just fucked up. my cousin has an english teacher that's like that. some upper east side chick. can you feel my disgust?

wow...everyone is getting crazy. if i wasnt in pajamas, i'd go join the festivities. ah well, here's to hoping we win the finals.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

well, i'm back in israel after a wonderful trip home. always good to see the loved ones. it was interesting to see everything after being here for 9 months. i mean, it's only nine months, but it seems to have had a bigger impact on me than i thought it had. First off i didnt realize how much adjusting i had done while i was here, and i also didnt realize how much it had changed me. In good ways i think. I find myself more open, more ready to say what's on my mind and what im feeling. that's probably an effect from being here, since it's a very open and informal society (for good and bad). I could see for the first time exactly how closed people tend to be back home. like they're sheltering themselves. over little things too. probably mostly over little things. just being willing to open your mouth and discuss topics that you dont normally discuss but just happen to be on your mind. just saying what you want to say. i'm not saying lose that little connection from brain to mouth that tells you when to shut up, but it seems as though people are actually scared on some level to say what they're thinking.

yeah, come to think of it, there seemed to be a bit of that going around. i dont know why. maybe once i could accept it, but now it's just too incomprehensible that people wont just say what's on their mind to the person sitting next to them, when they clearly have something they want to say. even if they dont know exactly what they want to say, they should just say something. anything. whatever.

i've come across some neat blogs. one comes out of saudi arabia (tip goes to Z of course). A saudi blogger, it's an amazing and wonderful world sometimes.

anyway, it's good to be back. i slept for 13 hours last night, and didnt bother sleeping tonight. stupid fucking jetlag. i can't piece myself together. but i'd better just crash tomorrow night and be done with it. i've got a supply of melatonin just in case.

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

mwaahahahaha....i'm in new york. have managed to make 3 people cry upon arrival. i need to get that number up next time.

i also dont have my phone book. just put your ear to the grapevine and you'll be able to find me if i want you to.